How Great Is My Love

Everything doesn't fade away. Everything doesn't actually change. Everything seem so expressive. Everything seem so happy through with sadness. I'm so hilarious being my mind overcapacity with his name.  My heart felt so shame. How love really could turn our lives something different, something more adventurous, and something more we must used to do eternally before we leave peacefully on earth. I know I could wait. But waiting for someone is possible that you might hurt yourself harder than ever. I knew this things from the start. I knew this consequences that I must face shall really turn me to another different me. I'm happy this three days passed by. Seeing the man I fell in love accidentally. Texting and Chatting with him in two days. I almost forgot everything when I was a doing those. Kung may pagkakataon lamang ako na magkaroon ng tapang at lakas ng loob na harapin ar kausapin sya why not!  aba! gagawin ko yung oramismo...Huling taon na makikita't makakasama kita. susulitin ko na ang bawat araw na maaari kitang pagmasdan. sana hindi magwakas at sana hindi ito panandalian lamang. Mahal kita! at asa Puso na kita. tumatak ka na kaya't hindi kita makakalimutan.. 

Who you are.

 I've been on a confusion. You won't feel it! cscdncdjdjnjsdcsdnnjcscnjssj!!!hindi ko na talaga kaya pang dalhin to.! ang bigat na eh! hindi ko na kinaya!  masakit naman talaga yun! paunti-unti hanggang sa tumagal na iipon! dumarami. mas bumibigat yung sakit! poot at galit yan yung ayaw kong mangibabaw sa akin! kasi masakit at mahirap! hindi ko na kayang kontrolin yung sarili ko. naiinis na ako! kung pwede lng! bigyan nio ako ng isang pagkakataon na malaman nio yung nararamdaman ko! hindi nakakatuwa! bakit ako nangaasar at naghihiganti??? ayaw ko patalo. ayaw ko maging down. ayaw kong mahina. ayokong nilalait ako. kahit na labag sa kalooban ko na gawin iyon sa inyo.. nagagawa ko na lng dahil gusto ko ipakita na malakas ako. alam ko naiintidihan nio ko. bigyan nio ko ng isang seryosong usapan na kung saan lahat ng nararamdaman ko maibubuhos ko.... para maluwag na yung nararamdaman ko.. please lang itigil niyo na. ang sakit eh.

My Sharp and My Flats

Today I was really tired.. i was thinking peacefully what would my life happen if i wasn't stuck in my place right now. should i open my heart to somebody else? and replace him after all?? Now i'm feeling losing my grips, my hope and my love. I'm feeling to give up on everything almost those 2 years having the same man in my heart, having the same man that could never be mine, having the same man that could never feel i exist.
Maybe i was just having to wide imagination including him and me. Nowadays I'm starting feeling uncomfortable, out of bound, out of my league, out of my place. all those regretful things i feel now. Do i just waste time, having him such as my love without back then. Now i'm feeling falling my heart again with someone else i really don't know and used to know? should i face it or believe i could have a single chance that he could be also...  now moving on it's not that easy, seeing him just a step closer to his room. seeing him for lunch, recess and also seeing him as my schoolmate. it's hard for me to adjust myself, my activities and my mind start buzzing off that i couldn't erase all those data that he was included. you i can't, have him, make him fall for me. i was just that big dumb jerk.. loving him falsely without any chance.. it's kinda tired and boring situation. you know that love could really last if it was true. now i'm feeling it true. i really hate this. i really don't appreciate myself. i'm feeling guilt and i'm not satisfied. now i'm loveless.

Major n' Minor

Hello ! Here's a beautiful day passed again! actually today, something happened. Maybe about my feelings, confessing and many more.. could i  ask you? should i confess now, as the first month of our school year pass by or i'll just for those 2 beautiful events coming soon??? let's back to my own story today.. 

i was at school, and i was in  a rush to go to the locker area, when suddenly someone bumped me... then when i look at it.... it was him! shockingly my mind stop thinking about what should i do and my heartbeat beats fast as it could.. he says "SORRY" ,, gently, smoothly and it was really refreshing for me.. since i was really really you know... "c=" (happy) seeing him, looking at him, see him smiles, see him all day long.. well even though that was just simple, for me it's best.. coz' everything he does i always look at it the best! 

for the this day.. i have sincerely wrote this what the best happenings for now./..