Today I was really tired.. i was thinking peacefully what would my life happen if i wasn't stuck in my place right now. should i open my heart to somebody else? and replace him after all?? Now i'm feeling losing my grips, my hope and my love. I'm feeling to give up on everything almost those 2 years having the same man in my heart, having the same man that could never be mine, having the same man that could never feel i exist.
Maybe i was just having to wide imagination including him and me. Nowadays I'm starting feeling uncomfortable, out of bound, out of my league, out of my place. all those regretful things i feel now. Do i just waste time, having him such as my love without back then. Now i'm feeling falling my heart again with someone else i really don't know and used to know? should i face it or believe i could have a single chance that he could be also... now moving on it's not that easy, seeing him just a step closer to his room. seeing him for lunch, recess and also seeing him as my schoolmate. it's hard for me to adjust myself, my activities and my mind start buzzing off that i couldn't erase all those data that he was included. you i can't, have him, make him fall for me. i was just that big dumb jerk.. loving him falsely without any chance.. it's kinda tired and boring situation. you know that love could really last if it was true. now i'm feeling it true. i really hate this. i really don't appreciate myself. i'm feeling guilt and i'm not satisfied. now i'm loveless.
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